14 Jul Letting Go, Again and Again: Why It’s So Hard to Surrender
There is a quiet moment, right between our inhale and exhale, where we are asked to trust not only in the breath but in life itself. That slight pause can feel like the scariest place to be.
We hear it all the time in yoga: surrender, let go, release control as if those were easy things to do. Surrender brings up complex feelings like resistance, fear, and grief. It asks us to let go of the false sense of control and shows us how difficult it is to relinquish specific outcomes.
It means confronting what we can’t fix or predict. Saying yes to what is, even when “what is” breaks your heart: the death of someone you love, a body that no longer moves the way it once did, a relationship that ends, a purpose that no longer feels true. The money dries up. The betrayal comes out of nowhere. The aging you thought you’d outrun catches up. And you find yourself crossing thresholds you never imagined.
And still, life keeps asking us to soften, to trust, and to remain open.
The Bhagavad Gītā illustrates how Arjuna transforms his journey. His significant transformation takes place in the chaos of the battlefield, where he faces tough decisions. Feeling overwhelmed, he drops his bow and looks for clarity in the confusion. In this moment of breakdown, he turns to his charioteer, Krishna, and asks, “Help. I don’t know what to do.”
We’ve all experienced this moment. It happens when the plans we made fall apart. When the roles we thought we had no longer made sense. When grief, confusion, or exhaustion brings us down, we say: I can’t do this.
And Krishna doesn’t say, “Walk away.” He invites Arjuna to remember who he truly is. He speaks not to the ego but to the soul. He directs him towards dharma, inner truth. And he redefines surrender: not as a loss of will, but as a return to what is authentic.
“Abandon all varieties of duty and simply surrender unto Me. I shall deliver you from all sinful reactions. Do not fear.”
(sarva-dharmān parityajya mām ekaṃ śaraṇaṃ vraja – Bhagavad Gītā 18.66)
That’s not just an ancient verse; it’s a living invitation. Fundamental transformation doesn’t happen when life is neat and predictable. It happens when everything unravels, when the old stories crack open. When the identity we’ve clung to no longer fits. That’s when something deeper can finally speak. That’s when the battlefield becomes sacred ground, when the soul begins to remember itself.
Control feels safer. I know that well. I like to line things up, make a plan, and keep it steady. I want to know because knowing feels like protection, and if I do this right, I can avoid disappointment. But in the end, you need to let go of your attachments to the results.
Surrendering means letting go of our mental defences, accepting uncertainty, and building trust. We need to pause and observe how we typically react. While we may want an easier and fairer journey, life often shows us that this isn’t always the case.
It encourages us to see things differently and to keep faith and trust in something we cannot see but feel deeply.
In my younger years, I decided to experiment with letting go. I had just arrived in Bali, and everything was finally coming together. I had a boyfriend, a job I liked at a hotel, a small studio I loved, and a little black cat named Black Magic. Life felt good and cozy. And yet, in that comfort and security, something in me whispered: Let go. Go deeper.
So, I did. I surrendered it all. The job. The man. The apartment. Even my cat. (That one hurt.) And within days, it all unravelled. It felt like the universe had heard me and said, ‘Okay, then, let’s see how far you’re willing to trust.‘
And it was rough. I cried. I second-guessed. I wondered if I’d made a colossal mistake. But in that space of not knowing, something opened. A new job found me. A home appeared on the land where I’d eventually build Intuitive Flow. A stray cat wandered in and gave birth to kittens in my wardrobe.
Everything returned, but not the way I’d expected, like some rerouting. But here’s the thing: surrender doesn’t promise clean outcomes. It’s not a transaction. It’s a relationship. And if we stop resisting, just for one breath, something inside begins to soften, and the armour cracks. And light gets in.
Surrender is a way of life. A choice we make again and again: to stay open, to breathe, to say: I don’t know where this is going, but I trust life. I trust my soul. I trust that I’m being held.
Some days, we meet surrender with grace. On others, we collapse. Surrender isn’t about getting it right. It’s about showing up with an open heart, even when it’s trembling.
And, just like Arjuna, gaze within and say Okay. I’m ready. Please show me the way.
In peace and light,
Linda